you are the first
you are last
you go before
lord you're the encore


its all been so fast
so surreal
such a blur
but i want to lift my hands and praise you and
shout aloud THANK YOU
for always being there(((:


i need to seek you lord.


it's way past midnight
and im awake with questions that won't wait for daylight
separating fact from my imaginary fiction
in my shelf of convictions
i need to find a place
where i can meet you face to face

and i,
i really want to know you
i want to make each day
a different way that i can show you how
i really want to know you
be patient with my doubt
im just trying to figure out
i really want to know your way



its all ending this thurs.
or mayb its just the beginnning of something.


so no more camping on the porch of indecision
no more sleeping under stars of empathy


my lip's peeling. ugh.
i cant wait for thurs cause im finally mtg char n ginny n we're gonna tan!! yay i love the sun(: quite sad tho cause i wont be able to join the guys at ubin. im so sorry ddah i cant join you. i really do want to go ubin. haven been there in ages. last time was when umm, when i went there was guides trekking?

so many things ive set out to do aftr the bigg As.
want to
-spend so much more time with god
-prepare wholeheartedly for china without studies weighing my mind
-earn money
-sell things online
-go china
-get reaqquainted with the surroundings and ppl arn me
-watch movies that i've always wanted to watch like stomp the yard
-watch heroes, CSI, prison break
-do a jigsaw with my sis (but i want a nicer one and not the one she has now)
-pick up painting!
-start song-writing again(:
-plan for next yr's trips
-learn more about the bible
-sing at weddings n events
anyone who wants painting to be done or anything to help with (tuition) let me know!

then again,
im trusting you God, to provide for me.
to provide for me the funds to be able to travel to china,
to let me learn driving
and to be able to provide for myself and not ask dad n mum for money.

sometimes we grow up so fast tt its scary.
and lord, i pray with all my heart i will always stay true to you always.
that my heart will always be yours and yours alone.


you see the smile on my face
or that dream in my eyes
hoping for more
wishing for more
for that special someone to come
whisk me away
yet it all fades away
when reality hits
and the bubble bursts
that it all isn't possible
i find my heart's lost
and oh how i search
only to find it in pieces
again
oh, how you put them together
tenderly
carefully
with the scarlet and tears
you shed for me
with the scarlet and tears
you shed for me
for me.


and oh, how often do we travel down that road again,
and he is always ever-patient, ever-loving, ever-faithful
til the end.

keep my heart lord, keep it.

without you
The sky opens up over me and you
And you don't seem to mind
that we're soaked through
You kiss me in the rain,
I forget what I'm moaning about
And I know I wouldn't be the same
without you

I laugh at my own jokes
and what I deem to be clever wit
And you don't seem to mind
that I'm so stupid
You kiss me once again,
I forget what I'm babbling about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

I couldn't replicate your touch
or love anyone again this much
But I wouldn't be the same
without you

I wouldn't be the same
without you
Without you


im holding on to you.

"the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O Lord, you will not despise."

Labels: almost over.

3:44 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

i realised that sometimes you never really know who they are.
then again,
are we us?

shakes head.
i need a change in kitchen tap and my room light.
would someone do it for me please?
i shall do it.[:

Labels: i love my mum's cooking.

8:17 PM

we could stare until we both are blinded
we could fall til gravity gets tired.


been thru so much heart talk with ginny.
its really good to have someone to talk it all out.
and there's you
thank you for always being there for me.
hearing all my rants
my fears

there's always failing
always letting go
after going thru so much i know there is so much more.
sometimes i don't know how to catch hold of it
you push it away but it just comes back at you
this time, stronger
how do you refuse it?
then it all comes back again
and you find yourself hoping,
hoping for more
dreaming for more
wishing for more


i am a mystery
i am a locked room in a tall tower



and then you find yourself again,
all in the saving arms of grace that hold you so tightly.
never tiring, never letting go.
push thru the waves that want to pull you down
you come out stronger,
braver.
thinking nothing is ever going to get you back there.

oh can you feel the gravity falling?
calling us home
oh did you see the stars colliding?
shining just to show we belong


and it all sweeps back.
again and again
will you never tire?
this time it hits harder,
you feel torn into two pieces.
one way or the other
hope.
trust.
frailty.


its love, its love
that holds us
we will be alright
its truth, its truth
that shows us
if we'll walk in its light.


yeah i know everything will be alright(:

so many things unspoken of
so many things unheard of
so many things dreamt of


break free
hack away.
cut. break.
with all your might.

"Mystery"

I wanna get your words stuck in my head
I wanna touch your soul with mine
I want to always be, be by you lead
Always

I wanna know that you hung the stars in the sky
So on lonely nights I would know your presence
I wanna feel your love under my skin,
down through my bones

I wanna feel the wind
and know that you're near me
And see in the seasons your mystery
I wanna feel your love flow through my veins
Pound through my heart

Your love endures forever
Your love changes me
Your love makes me whole,
makes me better

I want to know how this could be
Yet your love remains a mystery
That's woven all the way
That's woven all the way
That's woven all the way through me

Your love endures forever
Your love changes me
Your love makes me whole,
makes me better
Your love endures
-brooke fraser

my heart is weak
my soul is not
i cannot see.
still my hope is found in you
i hold on tightly
you will never let me go
jesus you will never fail.


i love you jesus(:

Labels: my heart is weak.

7:34 PM

my heart burns for you'
you see past all my lies.

shout it out (:

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all the brothers and sisters

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of old.

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credits.

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wonderful people

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